Smoke Free (OK, for real this time)

Yeah, so I haven't smoked in like a week. Not since Andy Kemp's farewell party. Mostly because I got sick with a cold right after that. I was coughing so hard I couldn't even think about cigarettes. Even when I got better (I'm still not completely well) The desire to smoke wasn't even there.

So I just simply made the decision to quit cold turkey. I know what everyone says, "Oh, it won't work. It'll fail. You can't quit cold turkey." Eat Me. Fuck You I can.

I haven't had a cigarette in a week now. So far, so good. Although it is tough. My body's not craving the smoke, but it is craving the nicotine. My brain is sending me messages while I'm driving like, "Shouldn't you be smoking? You mostly smoke when you drive." But my will to defy and resist even my own urges is strong. I'm having nic fits, but I'm replacing them with drinking water.

I still go out of the office with the smokers when they feel the need. Even though I'm not smoking. I can tolerate being around smoke. Most people it would make them want to smoke more. Not me. It's more of an endurance test. I go out just to get away from my desk for a while. My brain needs the break.

One thing I've noticed since I've stopped is my senses have become more acute. I can smell what my clothes really smelled like when I was smoking. Usually I'm pretty conscious of that. I try to keep the scent off of me to a degree, but sometimes it's pretty obvious. But now I can instantly tell when someone else has recently had a cigarette. I can go "He had one five minutes ago, and she had one ten." My father went through the same thing when he got out of the hospital this past summer. He lost the desire to smoke and when he stopped he realized what his clothes smelled like.

It's funny the lack of nicotine in my system has started to make me act weird(er). I'm walking around more silly and it's probably because I haven't had a smoke to mellow me out in a week.


Well, I don't know. We'll see how it goes. Wish me luck. Next thing you know, I'll be eating right and exercising.

Labels: Fitness, Health